too lazy to study....but I can't break my promise...

I'm really too lazy to study...after that thing happened yesterday....I feel that everything I did just went to waste....I feel like I want to drop each subject...well actually, everything except well, of course my favorite subject because I love the teacher....

I promised her that I would study...and I told her that I will beat my score from the test she gave last year...I got 97 in that exam...so now, I have to get 98-100 on our periodical exam tomorrow.... Even though, I'm really too lazy to even open my book to read my lessons right now....but I will study because I promised her...the reason why I promised her was because that was the only way that I could think of to get myself to do it....

I hate breaking the promises I make....It kills me when I break the things that I say....especially if on the time that I said it, I was extremely sincere...but sometimes, I feel that people don't take me seriously....the thing about me is----If you don't believe in me, that I can do a certain task....then I would on purposely do the task in the worst way you can imagine....(okay,sometimes, I do it on purpose, but sometimes, I'm unconsciously doing it....)

I have to study, because I promised that I would get a higher score than before, I have to prove myself that I can do better now.....thanks for inspiring me miss....

I gotta go now...i'll just try to go online later...

~bye!