weak...

I'm not entirely sure what I am supposed to be typing right now...truth be told....I'm having one of the worst days in my life.....I'm having difficulties in expressing my feelings...its so hard for me...because I'm usually hiding my feelings.....this is my way of living now...hiding the emotions I felt...I've sealed everything that I feel......at least that was what I thought.....until last night....

I was lying down on my bed and I was thinking of so many things that happened actually the things that I thought that didn't hurt me or the pains that I tried to ignore.....it never occurred to me that I was handling more than I can handle....it hurts....it hurts so much that I'd like hit something hard! It didn't make sense....and yet it made me cry...

Why? What made me cry last night? I've been feeling this way since the other day...I try to understand people.....I try not to hurt them with my words or deeds.... but I end up hoping that someone can actually understand me....I couldn't tell anyone about it...and I'm feeling so weak......

I think I need to rest...

~bye!