stupid schedule!

goodness..we don't have assignments today, but tomorrow will be one hell of a day! Duty sucks! i hate it....8-12.30 cheering practice, then after that comes dentist, then after that i have to go to training! such a suckish day! grrrrr..........

i'll try to find a way....but what the hell? its hard! damn this day...argh!

aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! I don't think i want to train this saturday...coz i have to do stuff...that sucks!!!

im tired......

~bye

addicted..

I've been addicted to so many things....like the song because of you by Ne-Yo...and How do I breathe by mario...its stuck in my head...my obssession for these songs are inexplainable...anyway...

Addiction..this is how microsoft word defines it..."great interest in a particular thing to which a lot of time is devoted." if this is true then i guess i'm addicted with my jobs in school (batch officer,class officer and club officer) and volleyball that is so NOT TRUE!!! I come home every night very tired because my "addiction"...i have problems every night because of these things...i can not have ONE peaceful night not thinking of every single duty that i have....i'm tired....its not great interest that takes my time...most of it is just forced duty...

on second thought...i love volleyball, my batch, my classmates and dare i say it...my club (because of a certain person who makes everything feel better....thanks marmar!) but the duties are too heavy to handle...but i sacrifice because i love these people...not the duties...im not addicted to these things...its my way only of showing my love...

I seriously couldn't be any luckier....

im tired of doing this and that, i hid all my concerns, i never said anything because it was too painful for me to bear, i lost all passion and care, i'm sorry if i seem like im not there......i feel that i need a break from all of this...and i'd love to ignore all my responsibilities...but my guilt gets to me...so i decided to become like this......cold and to some even rude.......